I am not feeling anything extreme right now. Just wondering. How do I let go. How do I stop thinking about her that way. I do and I don't want to. Does that make any sense? I could live just fine with us just being friends. But it is so hard to stop thinking about touching her. It helps knowing she is getting married. But I don't know. It was just so damn nice. Being with her. It was so intense. So passionate. I understand that doesn't mean it would be like that again. But if it could. Wow. I am not going to let my husband know that I still struggle with this. It just causes too much problems. And I don't want to cause her stress. I mean she is getting married. Maybe knowing how I feel about her isn't good for her either. Shit life is too confusing. How can you keep up with everyones emotions. Oh well day by day I guess.

2004-06-10 - Bye Bye
2004-06-02 - FAT FUCKING BITCH ( THAT'S ME)
2004-06-01 - ME (YUCK)
2004-05-12 - New house!
2004-04-15 - Good and Bad