<- 2003-04-22 * 6:18 p.m. ->
I had a pretty good weekend. I was feeling a little better Saturday. And we had a great Easter.
Vince told me on the way home from the in-laws that he sees love in my eyes when I look at him again. I guess I am just letting myself be happy with him. I used to only focus on the negetive. I think I wanted to hate him. I wanted out. He was treating me bad. He was always harping on how much he didn't like Katie. But I don't know I think I wanted the newness that would have come with leaving. I wanted the freedom to live my life without thinking about what everyone else would think. I still want that.
I don't get it though. Well I guess I do get why Vince is so threatend by Katie. I would have left him. I would have left if I would have had somewhere to go and the money to do it. I don't think it was all to do with her though. She was just a symptom of the many problems we were having. He harps on her age. I was told by someone that the reason I am friends with her is because I want someone to control, to influence. The thing about that is she has more control over this relationship than I do. If I had control over it things would be completely different.
But I am happy lately. I have Katie in my life. Vince is being moderatly cool about it. And I love him too. My kids a great most of the time. And they love me right now. I know I should enjoy that while I can.
Oh well kind of a weird entry but hey I just felt like typing.
Love to all.
Kimmie
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2004-06-10 - Bye Bye
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