I am sitting at home right now.

I have decided to try to make my family work. I have to hold up my end of the bargain.

I want to make my marriage work. I can be happy. I love my husband.

I have figured out though that I must let all feelings of being with a women go. I have to stop teasing about it. I can't think that way anymore. I have to let that go. I had my one experience. I have to accept that is all I am going to have and move on.

I don't have to wonder what it would be like. I know I liked it. But I am married. And wishing for things I can't have is a childish and selfish thing.

So I am here and here I will stay. I am sure that all will not always be well. But I do have to remember that marriage and family are work, it is never easy. I enjoyed my time to stray. But now it is time to grow up and live my life. I better do it while my husband still loves me.

I want to say thank you to everyone for your support. I has helped me so mucn. I love you all.

2004-06-10 - Bye Bye
2004-06-02 - FAT FUCKING BITCH ( THAT'S ME)
2004-06-01 - ME (YUCK)
2004-05-12 - New house!
2004-04-15 - Good and Bad